it is really late and I cant sleep...sometimes when I cant sleep I start daydreaming about all that has happened over the past few weeks. it all seems so surreal. its like I have been in this terrible dream and I cant wake up. but then, when I do finally wake up I realize it wasnt a dream at all. it really all happened. no matter how many times I go over it in my head everything remains as it is. there are no variables that change or any pieces I have missed. I just have to come to grips with the fact that she is gone. when God takes someone out of the world they are gone forever from this world. but they have just begun their eternal life with Him in heaven. when u think about it that way it is very comforting. we will continue to hurt for her and yearn for her to be here but she is in a much better place. a place where all of her sins have been washed clean, although she had very few. she is in perfect condition and feels no fear or tortureous thoughts. we can all be thamkful for that. That is where I now am in this whole process. the thankfulness of her being in heaven, at peace greatly outweighs the pain of her not being here. I will always miss her more than anything, and im sure my days will still be sad, but ultimately she is in heaven with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! I will thank God everyday for that. dad,and I will eventually learn how to move on in life , but it wont be without her...no, she is still very much a part of our lives,through our memories of her and by the example she left us of how to be true christian servant! I love u mom and always will everday of this life and the next:)

Mt Rainier with Dad and Grandmama!

My Dad and Grandmother have been in town for a couple of weeks and we have been super busy.  My Dad has been totally remodeling our house. It looks so so good!  I cannot believe all that he has done.  He is an amazing handy man and a work horse.  I am so thankful for him being here!!! He is the best dad ever:) Love you DAD!!! I will post some pics soon of all the new stuff we have done, but first I want show some pics of Mt Rainier.  It is a mountain that is about 2 hrs from Seattle and it is spectacular.  It is 14,000 ft and is beautiful.  Me, dad, and grandmama went up last week and loved it.

This is our view of Mt Rainier when we were about an hour away.  It gets so much bigger.

We are getting closer...

This is a half way point, already 7,000 ft up the mountain.  

More to come!!!

Things we have been up to lately...

We went to Alaska in June and I totally forgot to post pics.  So I am a little late, but here are a few.  We went with Will's parents and his cousin. We had a blast and saw so many beautiful sceneries.  If you have not been to Alaska I would recommend going.  God's creation is truly amazing!!!

Here is a glacier that was so big and beautiful. What a gorgeous backdrop.  Next we have a grizzly bear!!! Yikes, cant believe we got so close.

How cool is this shot!!! Actually I will let you in on a secret...this was a animal conservation.  This bear was behind a fence, but it looks like we were out in the middle of her habitat, in the wild:)

This is a shot of us in a tiny plane flying over Mt McKinley.  It is also known as Denali.  The biggest mountain in the continental US.  It was pretty awesome. We had to have oxygen because the plane was not pressurized.

So beautiful!!! There were so many more wonderful sites, but these were just a few.  We were so lucky, we had great weather on our flight tour.