So things are not how I would have planned...

Hello friends, family and fellow bloggers. I have not posted anything in quite a while. I am now going to make blogging a priority. I am going to start focusing on things that take up time and are productive. I like projects that are enjoyable and ones that you can show your creative side in. So today is a new day of writing, picture cropping, zooming, venting, sharing and exploring this new social media network...
If you didnt already know, my mom past away 6 weeks ago. Wow, has it ever been tough. But it is only tough because we are not prepared for times like these when we are blindsided by disaster and tragedy. But the only way to cope in a situation like mine is to throw your hands up to God and say I surrender. I will continue to have bad days and months, but I can honestly say that God has wrapped His arms around me and my family and shown us a peace that I could not have imagined three weeks ago. When tragedy strikes, your best friend is shock for at least a week. And when that shock wears off, things can get tough. The reality of the situation finally sets in and you realize that the person you love so much is really gone. That hurts so bad, but it also allows you to be human and feel things so deeply. After the reality set in of my mom's death, I just got really sad. I would occupy myself with lots of stuff to do during the day, but at night, my mind would slip into the world of the what if's and could have's. That is when I realized that wasnt going to help anyone. God allowed her to leave this earth. No matter how she was taken out. She was in Heaven now with God. He took her in and is loving on her now. She is in perfect condition. She is not sick or scared and has complete peace. THat brings tears to my eyes. Good tears! She was the most amazing mother and I am not just saying that. THis all hurst so bad because we were so close and she was my best friend. Everyone who knew her loved her. They were drawn to her infectious personality. She could light up a room and make everyone in it feel so special. She had that ability to make ppl feel like she had known them her whole life. She was special and the most compassionate person I will ever know.
I cant stop there...she loved Auburn football!!! I cant believe how this season is turning out becasue my mom would be so excited right now. Somehow I feel like she has a hand in this whole thing. I bet she has all the angels wearing orange. I will stop here tonight, but one thing makes me rest easy. My mom is a guardian angel to anyone who knew her. She is in heaven looking over all of us. I love you so much Mom and miss you everyday!

Goodnight!